Tension

I don't do well with conflict. I tend to avoid it if at all possible. I just want everyone to get along. I hate it if someone is upset with me, whether they have a right to be or not. But I also hate being a mouse and getting walked all over. An excellent opportunity has come up at work. A position that would mean doing something that I really enjoy instead of something I tolerate, but am good at. It would mean staying in the same office, but working with a different team. Same pay, greater potential for promotion and much less travel involved. But it also means I have to upset someone. I debated on when to tell them, but the cat was let out of the bag and they confronted me about it. I did nothing wrong, but they don't see it that way. I think everything has blown over, but I will have to endure "joking" comments about all this.

Conflict makes my stomach hurt. I just want to hibernate. With all this going on all I have done is eat, sleep and watch TV/read. No exercising for the past two days. That is stupid because working out would help relieve some of my tension. But I'll be on track tomorrow with pilates class. I really hope this opportunity pans out. I would love to be able to look forward to coming to work instead of dreading it and living for the weekend. This may be an answer to prayer, a way to keep working and not have to travel when we have kids. I'll just have to keep praying about this.

I got a card from my sister in law thanking us for the blanket. She says that one of the boys makes sure that the blanket is always with the baby and he says that it is her favorite blanket because it is so soft. How sweet! I may have to knit them more stuff!