Wednesday, May 25, 2005


I have been in a funky mood lately. Even the sunny days haven’t helped my mood. And today is rainy, which makes me want to curl up in bed with my cuddle bug (the dog) and read a book. I just want to disappear from the world for a while. I guess it is good that my husband is just an active outgoing person. He tends to drag me out of the house, which usually makes me feel better.

I do need to have a good cry before I go visit my little sister and her new baby boy. She had him on Monday, everyone is healthy and happy. I don’t need to bring my problems and concerns with me and rain on her parade just because she has what I want (the ability to stay at home with her babies). I also am going to go see two friends of mine in Kansas City on the way down and the way back. They both have small babies and one stays home full time and the other one only works a couple days a week. Needless to say I am going to have to paste a smile on my face. They don’t need to get the brunt of my reaction to not being able to stay at home. I just keep telling myself, Give it to God, Give it to God.

Ok, lets talk about something cheerful! Sister had her baby boy on Monday, that’s a happy topic! Baby boy was healthy and the C-Section went well. They were a little worried before he was born because my niece was just barely over 5 pounds when she was born, but the nephew was well over 8 pounds. I can’t wait to see them all. I don’t have the blanket done yet, and I won’t have it done before I go. I’ll just have to mail it to her. I am debating on whether or not to tell her I am making it. I could show her what I already have done. I also get to see my mom when I go down to visit. I really miss her. Something else cheerful, um……, work is going well. It looks like I will be getting a project soon, which will alleviate the boredom, but will bring its own stressors.

I really should go running. I think it would help my mood. But I don’t want to go running because of my mood. I just reread this thing, I am so depressing!!! I think I’ll stop now before I depress the entire internet.

1 comment:

  1. Anonymous6:28 PM

    The best thing about the blog is you can use it to vent, so vent here and then go off and visit that baby and those friends and let the joy of life infuse you with happiness. Having not been in your place I can't give the advice you need, I can only give my support.