The first year I was in the professional world I caught the tail end of the buzz about paradigms. I have always loved this concept because it describes me to a T. I tend to operate with a self-imposed set of rules that may or may not be the best thing for me until something jolts me out of it. I think running has become one of those not so good rules.
The thing is that I have gained 5 lbs a year for the past 6 years. If I continue like this I will be over 200 lbs before I am 35! Plus hubby and I are planning on having children in the next 3 years and that will have impact on my weight as well. My weight is starting to influence my everyday life. It is changing what clothes I wear and sometimes what activities I get involved in. I know I am not fat, but I will be if I don’t watch it. I need to do something about this now, not later, not tomorrow, now. And not just every now and then, or when I feel like it.
Now to get to my original point. In order to lose weight I need to exercise. My desire to become a runner and inability to maintain a running program is keeping me from exercising at all. I have this “rule” that if I don’t run that I can’t do anything else. Stupid, I know. I think I am going to put the running plan on the backburner for right now. It just isn’t doing me any good. That doesn’t mean that I won’t ever run, but running needs to be just a part of my exercise regimen. I need to do whatever I need to do to keep me moving every single day. If that means doing something different every single day, as long as I am moving, that is fine.
I think eventually I will get back to an actual running plan, but right now losing weight needs to be my priority. I think hubby and I are going to get a membership with the YMCA and there is one in my work building. I no longer have any excuses! Hopefully changing my "rules" about running will enable me to get in shape and lose some weight. If I decide to really devote myself to running again, great! If not, I'm not going to beat myself up about it.